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I Surrender!

O.k, so my day wasn’t exactly roses and sunshine but once I surrendered to the fact that I am sick things did get a little brighter.  And the rain stopped enough to go get some food!  By 12:30 I still hadn’t eaten breakfast, I NEVER go that long after waking without eating, and it was really time to find sustenance.  I feasted on scrambled eggs and tomatoes and a pile of sautéed broccoli with garlic.  YUM!

After brunch I was still hungry but after an asian pear and some seaweed crackers I realized what I really needed was a sleep.  My throat was sore and swollen and my body was starting to ache.  Plus, I think I have whiplash from my little accident this morning.

First thing this morning I went up to the roof to move yesterdays laundry out into the open because it wasn’t raining.  As I climbed down the stairs I hit a puddle on the landing, went down HARD on my bum, and smashed my head against the concrete wall.  My first thought was “don’t pass out”, that’s how hard I hit.  I crawled to a dry spot, shed a tear, and collected myself. 

I have a goose egg on my head, an ongoing headache, and really sore neck and shoulders.  Luckily, my husband the chiropractor is taking good care of me.  Insult to injury on top of a cold though.

Alrighty, today is the 15th and thus half way through my June Goals.  It has been going really well EXCEPT the sugar thing.  Especially since hitting China.  China LOVES sugar.  They have entire grocery stores dedicated to it.  And it’s places you least expect it.  All crackers and breads and many items made with beans or sticky rice are REALLY SWEET.  I know bread products everywhere often have a little added sugar but these things are sweet.  I like sugar in my mouth but I don’t like what it does for my immune system, my food cravings, and my mood and this is why I was trying to cut down.  But I am sort of giving up…or maybe not…I need to renew my resolve!

I have a few addendum to my goals, one is the push up variation challenge and the other is a running goal.  My new running goal is 2.5 hours of running or 4 runs per week!  Yea, let’s go!

The food journal has reveled a lot of snacking, some of it mindless.  I will bring more awareness to this during the second half of the month.  Also, I have been regularly snacking after dinner.  Sometimes this is valid hunger but more than anything I think it’s just a bad habit I have gotten into and need to break.

Do you find yourself going to the fridge in the evenings?  When is your most common “mindless snacking” time of day?

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Hunger

I love food.  I love eating.  It is a consistent source of pleasure in my daily routine.  Unfortunately, I abuse this pleasure on a regular basis, reaching for food when I am stressed, fatigued, distracted, upset, or generally rundown.  Yep, that’s right, I am an emotional eater.  It’s not an easy thing for me to admit because in many ways I have a very healthy relationship with food.  Ninety-five percent of the time my body craves good quality whole foods to fuel it.  But even those can be abused in excess or when eaten for the “wrong” reason.

Over the last year or so I have been really working on paying attention to my hunger signals and practicing awareness while I eat.  I have become a more conscious eater but I still regularly slip up and yesterday was one of those days.   Breakfast on the train was very nice, I prepared rolled barley with goji berries and banana.  While it “cooked” in a Tupperware I slowly ate and throughly enjoyed an Asian pear.  I took a nice long time to eat my cereal, noticing as I ate that my hunger was going away and that I was satisfied but not FULL after finishing.

Lunch went downhill pretty fast.  I wasn’t able to find a produce stand before getting on the train this time and so I was left with eating cup of noodles!  At least I found some baked tofu to add protein.  Noodles just aren’t my thing.  Bread, love it.  Rice and pasta I could live without.  Up until this lunch I had only eaten half or less of my noodles and Tate finishes them for me, I just get bored of them and not very satisfied.   Anyways, I ate all the noodles because I was worried about being hungry.  I was very full after lunch but soon became “peckish” (my favorite British word) due to being overtired and completely sedentary.  Throughout the afternoon I munched on food that I didn’t really need or want.  Had I taken a moment to move around or distract myself from boredom I probably would have lost the desire to eat.

As I wrote about in yesterday’s post Big Saturday Night, I had a weird snacky dinner that wasn’t really satisfying or splurge worthy for that amount of calories.  I probably would have been better off drinking a cup of tea and going to bed.  I was feeding fatigue and stress more than true hunger.

And so I strive and struggle, sometimes gracefully and sometimes not, along this path of conscious eating.  I know full well that for me this is a lifelong path, something I will continue to get better at but will always have to “practice”.

I woke up to find this article in my inbox, how appropriate!   It is a good reminder of how to bring awareness to REAL HUNGER

http://caloriecount.about.com/hunger-fullness-scale-b287971

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